I just heard back from my old boss, and it looks like there's not really any chance of an opening at the company in the near future. I'd say I'm fine with it, but I'd be lying. I knew that there was a huge (and I mean gargantuan!) chance that there wouldn't be an available position, but still, even though I knew what a long shot it was, I hoped that there would be.
This is the company that inspired me to drop out of UVIC and abandon my plans of CANADA! to go to community college and then to UCSC just so that I could get a degree in film. Ha. If only I knew that I'd have been better off just staying in LA trying to work than bothering with a film degree at UCSC. What a waste of time. Although I have learned quite a lot, the majority of which did not come from my classes. But back to the job.
I know I kind of sound like a weirdo when I talk about it, but I fucking love the company I used to work at. The management is fantastic, the employees are all really friendly and interesting and get along well, and there's a pool table in middle of the office. This is not your average production company.
I've met most of my friends through this company, I have family working there, and ever since my first job as a fill-in, last-minute 3 day receptionist I knew that this was one of the few companies that I would not want to blow my brains out working for (yeah, I'm not much one for office work, can you tell? and yet I love this job). Since then I've worked there on and off for 3 years in a variety of positions, and while this looks great on a resume, I had stupidly hoped that my resume wouldn't be flyered all over Burbank.
But that's how it goes. In a way, it's really good thing. I had known it was an extremely long shot, and if there had been an opening, it would have felt too easy. This way, I will really have to prove myself, and I think that more than anything will help me to decide if film is really my passion (I'm deathly afraid that I'll never really have a passion). If I can stick it out, then it really must be what I want to do. If I can't... well, then I'm going to have to figure something else out. This also means that I can explore all the different variety of jobs that are available and really get a feel of what I want to do.
That's one part freeing and ten parts terrifying.
I'm feel I'm back at square one. The funny thing is, I've never even left it at all.
Well, this is going to be one hell of a ride. I'm excited to see how it turns out.
This is the company that inspired me to drop out of UVIC and abandon my plans of CANADA! to go to community college and then to UCSC just so that I could get a degree in film. Ha. If only I knew that I'd have been better off just staying in LA trying to work than bothering with a film degree at UCSC. What a waste of time. Although I have learned quite a lot, the majority of which did not come from my classes. But back to the job.
I know I kind of sound like a weirdo when I talk about it, but I fucking love the company I used to work at. The management is fantastic, the employees are all really friendly and interesting and get along well, and there's a pool table in middle of the office. This is not your average production company.
I've met most of my friends through this company, I have family working there, and ever since my first job as a fill-in, last-minute 3 day receptionist I knew that this was one of the few companies that I would not want to blow my brains out working for (yeah, I'm not much one for office work, can you tell? and yet I love this job). Since then I've worked there on and off for 3 years in a variety of positions, and while this looks great on a resume, I had stupidly hoped that my resume wouldn't be flyered all over Burbank.
But that's how it goes. In a way, it's really good thing. I had known it was an extremely long shot, and if there had been an opening, it would have felt too easy. This way, I will really have to prove myself, and I think that more than anything will help me to decide if film is really my passion (I'm deathly afraid that I'll never really have a passion). If I can stick it out, then it really must be what I want to do. If I can't... well, then I'm going to have to figure something else out. This also means that I can explore all the different variety of jobs that are available and really get a feel of what I want to do.
That's one part freeing and ten parts terrifying.
I'm feel I'm back at square one. The funny thing is, I've never even left it at all.
Well, this is going to be one hell of a ride. I'm excited to see how it turns out.
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